Why?

Why is this happening to me?
Why does my life is going the opposite way from what I´ve dreamed?
Why am I always wrong?
Why, why. . .why?!
Why the fuck is this happening to me??
Am I that bad of a person?
Do I deserve this?
Is it my fault?
I need answers and I´m not getting any!!!
It´s like the entire world turned against me!
Why?
All my hopes and dreams just vanished in front of my eyes!
I´m alone, lost, cold. . .
I don´t even recognise myself anymore!
I´m a monster!
I´ve turned myself into this, so there´s nobody I can blame for my mistakes!
I can´t take anything for granted and I can´t control my future!
Everything that I do is a mistake.
Every step that I take just leads me to wrong places!
What am I supposed to do to revert this situation?
I´ll just stay still, quite. Maybe nobody will notice that I´m here!
He was right when he said I was worthless.
There´s nothing good in me, just shame, self pity and a huge mistake!!!!